Update...

So I've decided that since I never really told a lot of people about my blog I'm probably pretty safe on here. I have a stat counter that shows me where people are looking at the blog from, and at this point, no one has, outside of the Indy area and a few outside of the state are reading/checking on the blog (people I know who follow this blog). I think I'm safe for now, I'll need some help on the preferences thing K, to change it so that people cannot search and find me, but other than that, I think I'm safe.

I need an outlet and this will be a small part of my outlet. I'll be careful what I say because I know that it can be used against me in court since it is in writing....but here is where I'll share my thoughts...I accept thoughts back, just know that I will follow what I feel the Lord telling me to do, not necessarily what you tell me to do. I have to do what I feel in my heart/mind is right in the Lord's eyes for my life, and that may not always jell with what you think. I respect each one of you and your opinions and look forward to hearing your thoughts/opinions on different things I post.

Please continue to pray for me to do and say what I should when I should with my wife. I've done OK so far, and know that the Lord has been with me each time. I would love to say that we're going to get back together, but at this time, I'm not sure what will happen. I know the Lord does, and I'm just going to have let Him take this one...He knows what needs to happen. I'm praying that He prompt me in the directions I should go. I'm considering finding a good lawyer, and believe I have someone in mind, but if you know of someone let me know. I want to be sure my boys are safe and secure for the rest of their lives.

My appetite is starting to get better, I think! :) Today I ate a Tenderloin, all but 1 SMALL bite, and didn't feel sick!! I'm doing better during the day with my moods, at least I think I am, and nights are getting better. I am starting to sleep a little better. The Lord is showing me more and more that this anxiety is stuff that I need to "let go and let God" on! I'm working on it, but it's a lot easier said than done.

Thanks for the prayers and support! I know that this has been a REALLY long blog...thanks for reading it all. :)

Blessings,
Mark