Short Update

Just a quick note... I am talking with my lawyer tomorrow morning. I was supposed to be served papers this week, but I think her lawyer didn't do what she said she would do, OR my wife was just blowing smoke to see what I would say/do. I haven't really done anything...I now have my own phone contract with Verizon so that it cannot be shut off again...was on Monday, ARG! I will be talking with my lawyer about filing first thing Monday if she hasn't filed yet so that my lawyer and I can pick the judge, so I've heard that is the case.

Going to dinner tonight with my boys, my folks and the wife's folks. They want to see us, and the kids. :) It will be wonderful, and I'm praying that dinner goes well with me being able to eat.

It's been an up and down week for appetite, but not too bad. Just keep praying that it goes well.

Thanks for the prayers!
Blessings,
Mark

Prayer for Tonight

Pray tonight...we're going to go to dinner tonight as a 'family' just my wife, the boys and I for Keith's 1 year birthday that is today...pray that I'm able to eat and things go well tonight.

Ray told my mom last night that the reason that we are living at my parent's house is because "mommy wants to be with "W" not daddy and "W" wants to be with mommy". I don't know if Ray came up with this on his own or if this was something that mommy told him...my wife and I had talked about not telling Ray anything for a while...trying to keep him innocent...but hey who knows why he said what he said, but he certainly has it figured out now. My heart broke last night when my mom told me that...

Thanks for the prayers and support.
Blessings,
Mark

Update...

So I've decided that since I never really told a lot of people about my blog I'm probably pretty safe on here. I have a stat counter that shows me where people are looking at the blog from, and at this point, no one has, outside of the Indy area and a few outside of the state are reading/checking on the blog (people I know who follow this blog). I think I'm safe for now, I'll need some help on the preferences thing K, to change it so that people cannot search and find me, but other than that, I think I'm safe.

I need an outlet and this will be a small part of my outlet. I'll be careful what I say because I know that it can be used against me in court since it is in writing....but here is where I'll share my thoughts...I accept thoughts back, just know that I will follow what I feel the Lord telling me to do, not necessarily what you tell me to do. I have to do what I feel in my heart/mind is right in the Lord's eyes for my life, and that may not always jell with what you think. I respect each one of you and your opinions and look forward to hearing your thoughts/opinions on different things I post.

Please continue to pray for me to do and say what I should when I should with my wife. I've done OK so far, and know that the Lord has been with me each time. I would love to say that we're going to get back together, but at this time, I'm not sure what will happen. I know the Lord does, and I'm just going to have let Him take this one...He knows what needs to happen. I'm praying that He prompt me in the directions I should go. I'm considering finding a good lawyer, and believe I have someone in mind, but if you know of someone let me know. I want to be sure my boys are safe and secure for the rest of their lives.

My appetite is starting to get better, I think! :) Today I ate a Tenderloin, all but 1 SMALL bite, and didn't feel sick!! I'm doing better during the day with my moods, at least I think I am, and nights are getting better. I am starting to sleep a little better. The Lord is showing me more and more that this anxiety is stuff that I need to "let go and let God" on! I'm working on it, but it's a lot easier said than done.

Thanks for the prayers and support! I know that this has been a REALLY long blog...thanks for reading it all. :)

Blessings,
Mark

Name change...

You might notice I changed the title to the page...I am not sure if it will help, but I wanted to change it so that perhaps others who I don't want to find this will not find it. Any ideas on good tracking system to see who is reading this?

Thanks,
Mark

OK....

So the last 2 days have been some of the worst 2 days since my wife and I split. I hate seeing my 4 year old get upset because he is going to see mommy...he doesn't want to go, and yet I tell him "you're gonna have lots of fun with mommy! You get to see mommy and spend the night at the house." He says "but daddy, I want to stay here with you and mema and papaw." It just breaks my heart. I reassure him that we'll be here when he gets back and he will have fun with mommy, but he still resists for a while. He gets in the truck with mommy and turns on his brave face, I see it, I'm not sure that my wife does, but I do. Pray for him, and also please pray for my appetite to return...I know that the Lord is with me on this. In HIS timing...not mine.

Thanks,
Mark

Prayer...

So my last post was about a roller coaster...well I think it is about to fall off the tracks and there is nothing I can do to save it but pray....so please pray with me. 

Thanks, 

Mark