Roller Coaster

I hate roller coasters. I hate not having control, which is why I hate them. I also don't think it is natural to have your feet go over your head and your body flying through the air like that, but still I've riden a few just to see what they're all about.

I liken my wife and I's relationship to a roller coaster in a slightly different way though...more of a peak/valley kind of way. Right now, I feel like I'm on this roller coaster and I'm upside down in the valley of the roller coaster. I know that the Lord is with me, and that He will see us through this, but at the same time I'm in panic city because I don't like being upside down and that close to the ground and not in control. Right now, control is in my wife's and God's hands. My wife's because she can choose to love me and forgive me for not being there when I should have been, or not. God's because I've given it over to him, I keep trying to take it back, but I'm trying to keep it in His hands because I know that in His hands it is the safest.

I love my wife with all my heart, and I don't want to loose her. I know that we will make it through because we have God on our side. I am praying that the Lord continue to mold me into being a Godly husband. Please continue to pray. Thanks.

Mark