Roller Coaster

I hate roller coasters. I hate not having control, which is why I hate them. I also don't think it is natural to have your feet go over your head and your body flying through the air like that, but still I've riden a few just to see what they're all about.

I liken my wife and I's relationship to a roller coaster in a slightly different way though...more of a peak/valley kind of way. Right now, I feel like I'm on this roller coaster and I'm upside down in the valley of the roller coaster. I know that the Lord is with me, and that He will see us through this, but at the same time I'm in panic city because I don't like being upside down and that close to the ground and not in control. Right now, control is in my wife's and God's hands. My wife's because she can choose to love me and forgive me for not being there when I should have been, or not. God's because I've given it over to him, I keep trying to take it back, but I'm trying to keep it in His hands because I know that in His hands it is the safest.

I love my wife with all my heart, and I don't want to loose her. I know that we will make it through because we have God on our side. I am praying that the Lord continue to mold me into being a Godly husband. Please continue to pray. Thanks.

Mark

Alrighty then...

So I posted yesterday about a personal matter. Today I post to say, I'm succeeding in my endeavor to lessen my work load at church. Last night I went online and downloaded/installed ProPresenter. This program ROCKS! It is going to make my life MUCH easier in the end, and I am looking forward to showing one of my SLT members how to use it, so that she can prepare and run it for worship. :)



I have also decided that the SLT (Student Leadership Team) will be taking on the task of deciding what needs to be talked about each month at their meetings. I will give them SOME materials to talk about, but they will come up with the rest. They will run the meeting, I'm going to try to take a back seat and just be an advisor.



Please continue to pray, but know that the Lord is with us, and continues to show his love and mercy to us daily. Thanks!

Blessings,
Mark

Back in the Saddle again...

Praise the Lord for the good things He has done. And Praise the Lord for having my boss back! :) I know her return has been bitter sweet for her since she has to leave her BEAUTIFUL little boy at home, but I know I am glad she is back. My stress level has reduced. :)

On a VERY Personal note, please pray for me and my family. I have allowed my work at school and church to take control over my life far too often and I need to work to not work at home so often. No we are not that bad off, but this is a warning sign for all involved in ministry, including myself. Remember what the Lord has given you, and take care of your wife and family 1st. He will take care of the rest (others) and you will have time to do that when it is in HIS time. I have been taking care of my family, but not speaking the correct Love Language for a while. I need to be sure that I re-learn to speak the Love Languange of my wife, I knew it once and I know it still. I just need to be sure to speak it out loud and take time to do so. I have taken for granted too long that she will be there and I need to be sure to protect our relationship from further damage and repair what has been damaged from past hurts. Time will heal our relationship, and I know that the Lord will be there with us helping each of us heal.

Thank you for your prayers.
Blessings,
Mark